2 Months Later

A few of you have asked me if I was going to keep writing blogs once I got back to the states.

And I think I said something along the lines of "yeah, if I have something to say" or "maybe when I feel like I have more positive things to say"  (you know.. because missionaries are always happy and say postive things)
Because what do I say when so many of you ask me how I am?  "I'm fine." 

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I honestly have no clue why I do that.

Because if we're being honest, I've been holding back a bit. I felt like I couldn't share what I was really feeling, because... you know, it doesn't exactly sound the best if you answer every question with "Well actually, I kinda hate it here, the food is making me extremely sick, and I just want a freaking hug..."

Well, you know what I mean.

Today it has been 2 months since I've returned to the states. And as much as I've "strongly disliked" it at times, as much as I've felt sick to my stomach just longing to be back....  I can't imagine it being any other way.

Because in these past 2 months I've seen God open doors I wouldn't have noticed if I hadn't have been here. I've had conversations I never would have had if I were still in Chile. I've been able to start beautiful relationships with people, that wouldn't exist right now if I were still there.

And when I think about it all... even though it hurts to be here, even though my heart is there.... I'm just amazed.

Amazed, once again, to see how God's got this all under control. How well He knows my heart. How He knows what's best for me.

I remember a few days before I left Chile, I was in the kitchen with my host parents. I remember being so mad at my host dad, because he was telling me what I needed to hear in that moment. I was on the verge of tears, and just wanting to get out of there.... He put his arm around me and told me "Becky... we love you. If we had it our way, you'd be here with us forever. But the Lord has a plan for you, something special... and if you don't do what He's leading you to do, then you won't find out what that is. Maybe He'll reveal it to you as soon as you land in the states, or maybe it will take a while... but soon enough you'll know why you have to go back to the states right now." 

I'm laughing now, because I'm going to have to go back and tell him he was right....

Because now I see it. And the awesome thing is, I don't even see all of it yet.

But in these 2 months ...
The Lord has blessed me with a man who loves the Lord with all of his heart. Who has the same heart as me, and just like me.. is crazy enough to trust completely in the Lord while He begins to write our story together.

The Lord has given me a passion. One I never thought I would have, even though looking back... It seems so obvious. My heart goes out to the people of Ecuador. I constantly find myself thinking of ways to love and serve those beautiful people.

So even though it's been a hard, frustrating few months adjusting to being back in the states.. I can't imagine it being any other way. Funny how that works... right?

"That is why we never give up. Though our bodies are dying, our spirits are being renewed every day. For our present troubles are small and won’t last very long. Yet they produce for us a glory that vastly outweighs them and will last forever. So we don’t look at the troubles we can see now; rather, we fix our gaze on things that cannot be seen. For the things we see now will soon be gone, but the things we cannot see will last forever." 2 Corinthians 4.16-18

Prayer Requests

Please pray for:
-future decisions- where I need to be location wise.. That I will be receptive to His will.
-our relationship (Seba and I) We're excited to see where Lord takes us. We would love your prayers.
-cultural adjustments to being back in the states.